January Quotes and Messages

• the shortest distance between a problema and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. the one who kneels before the Lord can stand up to anything
• never underestimate your potential and never be ashamed of what you are. do your best specially when people expect you to do less, because the greatest treasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do
• it's not one great deed tha defines who you are. it's the little good things that you do to others that count. people may not notice but God does
• success in life cannot be an accident. it's the result of right decisions at the right time. champions are not the people who never fall, but the people who never quit
• our minds gather the dirt and dust of human opinion everyday, but God's words are like waterfals that wash and purify our hearts and minds
• for every dream in our heart, God gives us inspiration. for every hope we seek, God give's us unexpected miracles. for every faith we believe God blesses us more
• a happy heart is a good medicine and a positive mind works healing. don't forget to smile and have a good laugh, because it adds color to your life
• years from now, i don't know who i'm gonna be... where i'll be in my life and what i have done. but one thing would be certain... you would be my friend wherever i'll be
• i may be just a candle in your life. i may burn out and mely a while. but i just wish that within that time. my light and warmth touched your heart even for just a while
• life is a choice. if you can't have all, have some at least. if you cant't be good, don't be bad. if you can't be totally happy, don't be completely sad
• the most powerful witness of the truth of God's word is what other's see in our lives. we should live in such a way that people would say "I want your God to be my God"
• why does cupid symbolizes baby angels?... that is to remind us that true love never grows old. but why is cupid's arrow directed to the heart?... to remind us that true love hurts

email from her

Now, Michelle started again... she sent me this email:
hi! i know you won't expect this but it's true i sent you this msg. Don't get me wrong not trying to argue with you or anything just want to settle things between us once and for all. I know a lot had happen but i think it's never too late for us to settle it right? I've gotten so tired about this topic too...just want to have a peace of mind that's all...

I think twice before I sent her my reply:

Mchelle, for me everything is all over... I had forgotten everything already. I don't keep baggages. I had never thought about you nor the incidents that had happened in the past. It is not important to me at all.
I had been receiving messages at friendster from people which I presume you knew. Sending me messages
and accusations... similar accusations you had pointed at me before. I don't know if it was you or a friend of yours. I don't care about all those words thrown at me, as it does not affect me at all. I don't want to waste my time on such senseless words...
If you think that there's something to settle, then so be it... don't fret about things from the past. If there's something which hinders you from being at peace, then clear everything and let it go. In that way, I know you'll easily achieve peace of mind...

I already thought that everything was all over. For me it was, but for her, it wasn't...

peacefulness

Why would some people waste their time doing things that would bring them nowhere. They should just leave all the baggages they carry with them. Anger and bitterness would just make them more miserable.

Having peace of mind is essential to truly being happy. I am at peace with myself and with people as I do not carry with me any trace of bitterness and anger... I sleep and wake up each day with a smile in my heart.

I decided to post the incidents of the past in a 4-part series. I don't want to get tangled anymore with the complexities people would be creating. So I choose to be silent...

past situations - part 4

September 28, 2005 What Proves To Be
Last night I received two unknown text messages. One was asking me if I posted my number at a website and the other asked me if I was still awake. I did not mind it as I felt so tired and my head aches terribly. Thankful I had a good sleep. I woke up, receiving another message from a different number. The number which then appeared on my Chikka text messenger. He said that he got my number at the website. Then I got several missed calls. It was then that I decided to check the site. There it was!!! My name and my number was posted there, saying that I am looking for single hot men and married men! Throughout the day, those unknown messages did not stop. I told all of them to ignore the post under my name and some even helped to create a post to warn people that I am not the one who is behind the post created under my name. I did not let this pass. I know I should do something. Glad I did. I sent an email to the website administrator, asking them to delete the post under my name as I did not create that post. Thankful that they deleted every post created containing my name and my number.

Well, she simply can't do anything to put me down. All that she had done had simply failed. She should plan and think more. Her stupidness won't get her nowhere. Can't she just live a life? That was not a joke... it was simply a stupid thing to do. That person who posted it despises me and really wanted to piss me off. Now, she is being pathetic. Is that all she could do?

past situations - part 3

August 15, 2005 I Pity Her
I feel sorry for Michelle for doing all those things. She's simply wasting her time and making her life more miserable... inventing stories, making fun of me and my family and making such accusations. My fault was thinking that she's a friend and the past incident that we once got into are forgotten. But then, she was not completely healed of the past. Her life is full of hatred and jealousy for me. She even forwarded a message that I had never sent to her, even placing a date and time. That was totally funny! Imagine, I don't have a load in my cellphone. Now, she's been accusing me of doing such and even bothering her family... telling me to stop and that I was hurting her. But did I do anything to her? She's crazy... she's the one doing all those things to herself. Why would she do that and create a story just to make me look bad? Can't she just be contented with her life and move on. I don't care what her life with Vincent is, as it doesn't concern me anymore. Until now, she's texting me nonsense things... she could say anything she want. I simply pity her...

August 22, 2005 Some People are so Pathetic
Since last week, I have been receiving weird text messages from Michelle. Can't she just grow up and be mature. I don't care what she says. I don't give a damn to what she thinks. But at least, I am proud to say that I am not like her. She's being pathetic doing those things to me... I simply laughed at her. And again, last friday, I received an anonymous text message. That person is accusing me of ruining and getting into someone else's life... huh??? saying all those bad remarks... but she doesn't know me at all. A person with the same personality as Michelle. It's funny, they are just wasting their time saying nonsense things to me. I am not affected with whatever they say. Maybe they just envy me or hate with whatever reason that would be... But, why can't they mind their own life? Don't they have anything else left to do?... I pity them for doing such things. Some people are just pathetic...

August 24, 2005 Not affected
I received text messages from Vincent... or someone pretending to be him. He was asking why I was doing such things intruding his family?... that he gave his number to me before as he knew we're friends... that I was not happy and contented with my life... that he never said anything to me... that I am the one to be blamed for all that was happening. I knew beforehand this would happen. I know how much Mitch hated me and would want me to look bad. I don't care anymore... everything happened years ago. He should confront her wife for bringing up the past. I have cleared myself from all that had happened and I had chosen to forget all that had been said.
Whatever I say to him anymore doesn't matter. There's no sense knowing my side when he had only decided to listen and believe in all Mitch's lies and stories. I could not change his mind on what he thinks... I would understand that he could not choose to believe me. Mitch only wanted more re assurance and she would do anything to so that Vincent would forever hate and despise me. That's the most pathetic thing to do. but, if that would make her happy, then let her... their life doesn't concern me at all... I don't care anymore. I don't care what she says... I don't care what he thinks... I am not affected with all this...

August 31, 2005 Such Foolish Ways
I guess Michelle just want to piss me off. Again, she tried sending me another text message and this time using another number - 09273346764. She began her message with "Who's this? Maybe you got the wrong number" and I replied, "You're the one who got the wrong number and I didn't send you a message"Her messages- "You did. You just sent your number saying thid is my new number""Oh I remember, this is ***'s number.... ""I had this number in my planner..."then she told a story about how I tried to ruin their relationship, what I had done... making me feel bad...I told her she was bluffing. In the first place, how would I knew her new number?! I don't know why she keeps on sending me messages... Why can't she just move on and be contented with her life. She would get nothing out of what she's been doing. Have a life, michelle. Stop fooling me and making a fool of yourself

September 9, 2005 All Had Stopped or I Thought it Had
Thankful I had stopped receiving text messages from some people who doesn't know what to do with their life. Hate messages all meant for me... foul messages containing negative words against my character... not showing any respect at all. I didn't know who those persons are but I know who's behind everything. For more than 2 weeks I was bugged with those messages... I don't even care if it was Vincent who had texted me the other day clearing some issues or someone pretending to be him to clear her name... well, I don't want to waste my time anymore on those nonsense things. Still, I am not a person who easily got affected with what people say about me. They could not put me down through those words alone. I know myself better..

past situations - part 2

August 2, 2005 - Nothing else matters
I wouldn't want to argue with her. I was just telling her the real story that happened in the past and that's what she wanted to hear. How could she say these words to me?... He told me "the time you we're with him again was the time he realize he was not serious anymore. He simply wanted you to be back. That was the time that you had loved him, but he can't trust you anymore... what had happened was merely a product of revenge. You knew he dated someone, and you also did that to him..."
Well. Fine. If that's what Vincent told him. who am I to contest that? Yet I knew he said those words to make her feel better, as what he would always do. He had done that to me before. Saying not-so-nice words about his past, just to make me feel more loved and secured. Everything is now clear. How much I wanted to be nice to her.
She's not a friend... she just wanted an assurance. She wants to make herself believe that he loves her so much. She wanted to make me feel jealous now that she have him. We shouldn't be talking about those stuffs as it doesn't matter anymore. They are together and she just be contented with that. The past is over... whatever happened to us before had gone into oblivion.
Really, nothing else matters...

August 10, 2005 Another Dose of Her
Michelle brought up the past again! I thought it was over & she had moved on. But here she goes again! Even accusing me of being a liar & spreading all those rumors to my friends. I told her, "I never said anything negative to my friends. You don't know my life. I could easily do that, but what would I get from it?" Vincent denied everything and of course that is what she believed in! I understand her, as I would also believe in my husband than with other people.She said that everything was going well until Lora got into the picture. Now, do i believe her? In the first place, I knew her intentions. She was not true. She was not real. I knew she only wanted to know my life. talking to Lora made her feel so fulfilled as she had heared what she wanted to hear... all those negative comments about me! i told her "you don't have to say all those things about him over and over, all the time. once is enough. of course you love him. everyone knows that. you're already married"- i told her "i understand lor for saying those things at my expense as she wanted to please you. you need re assurance & that's what she gave to you. i thought the past is over with you. everything is clear, why do you have to bring it up again? you said you love him, he loves you, your happy and at peace... then live with it. can't you just be contented with that? your already married with him. the past doesn't matter anymore.

August 10, 2005 A Real Copycat
Received another text from her saying that she's contented with her life, she doesn't have any problems & she doesn't dwell on the past... that she never shared anything about me to anyone as there are secrets meant only between us... that my words are safe with her... that she never said anything bad against me... [hmmm, that's what I said to her] All those words had made me laugh!
For the last time, i said "I don't feel any hatred. I should feel hurt as you have accused me of being a liar. Again, I have not said anything bad against you or your family. No matter what i say, you would still believe what's already on your mind. But I still respect you..."

Now I feel so sorry for her. She just needed an assurance that Vincent loves her so much. knew she's just jealous of me & it shows. she's not real, she have intentions. And the worst thing is, she is a real copycat. she said back the things i had said to her, copied my own words, my opinions and own belief. she's just trying to be who i am... with all these, i just laughed out so loud!

past situations - part 1

July 18, 2005 - Her sharing
Since last week, Michelle had been sharing with me their stories, their life. I appreciate that but I was wondering why she is doing that. I don't know what she wanted... some revelations are indeed very hurtful, but all i could do is accept. And all those times, I was simply being friendly. offering an ear and sharing with her some thoughts. Until now, she has been sending me messages and now I shared these with her:
"I understand why vincent had said all those things to me. I may not know his reason why he told me that. I also understnd why he told u not to belive all those. I mean, you're alrdy married now & whatevr he had said before doesn't count anymore whether it was true for him or not"
"there are simply a lot of things in life that we just need to accept & understand... things that you stil have to experience & make you stronger, or we could simply put everything behind, pretend that it never happened & simply forget. Words once uttered will remain... but still I could accept that actions can change"
"Michelle, don't complicate life & your relationship. You have already accepted him & his past. Dont dwell too much on things that doesn't matter anymore. 'Dont even give ur time & energy to those people who are trying to ruin your relationship w/ him... remember that at the end of d day, the only thing that matters is what you have now.."

July 27, 2005 - Unreal, Looking in
Am i truly happy hearing her stories?... remembering him. realizing that he is really happy living his life with her... that this is what he really wanted. knowing than I am just a part of the past... that all that changed the day he met her. she is so proud to have him... so full of love and happiness. Oftentimes finding myself breathing a sigh with all those stories she was telling me... letting me picture them, a happy family with a loving wife and a responsible husband... sharing with me everything he had done for her... the dream that had been real for him.
To him---- We had changed, as people do. You found yourself in the arms of someone who could not be me... who could give you the love that you have not felt from me. We are now walking separately, still hand in hand., but this time with different persons. You are happy now & yes, you deserve to be happy... just as I am

friend requests

I received 2 friend request in my Friendster account. Both friend request are connected to Michelle... I don't know their reasons for sending that... giving me weird reasons, telling me that it was just an accident... well whatever!

on my new blog

I have been blogging for a year. This have been my way of breathing out... now, I decided to create a new blog. A blog that I could share. Yet, the other blog I have will still remain... still keeping the mystery and the untold part of myself.