sweet dreams baby

Sleep tight little one
Watching you sleep
So peaceful. So sweet.
I wonder what your dreams are made of
May the angels guard you
May you woke up with a smile on your face

loving my princess

Time had been too fast

I can't believe how much you've grown

You're more beautiful that I had ever dreamed

More precious that I had imagined

No matter how old you would be

You will always be loved

You will always be our princess

You will always be my baby

in my kids eyes

Sacrfice... that's what I always have to do.
I need to be strong... to protect them from their fears.

For 2 months, my kids are being taken care of stay-out caregivers. they would come to our house at 7 am and leave at 7 pm. Today is the last day that my kids would get to see their caregivers. It would be so hard as my kids have been accustomed to be with them everyday.

Again, fears and pain enveloped me. Situations which I had hoped would not happen. My kids would again have to adjust and be comfortable to a new caregiver that my mom would get for them. I know it would be hard to trust strangers to take good care of them. In their eyes, I could feel their fears upon the facing another stranger.

In pain, wishing that I would be there at all times. Yet I know I have to work to help support financially. The only thing I could do is remind them that they would be fine. I also have to release these fears in me. Praying at all times that nothing would harm them. Leaving my kids, while working in the office is not easy. Yet this is one thing that we have to live with.

weekend exploration

Last Saturday, hubby and I went to Divisoria. It's a place where you could find the cheapest bargains and you could haggle with the prices. The place is always crowded yet I still love going there. We've bought some goods, toys and shirts. We then decided to take our merienda in one of the chinese fastfood in Binondo. We ate at Chuan Kee. Its the first time I've tasted kiampong (a sticky chinese fried rice).

And of course, I've bought some hopia at Eng Bee Tin in Binondo. I love their hopia! I bought the Hopia Ube and the Hopia Ube/Pastillas combi. It's a very delightful treat. I have only bought 2 packs, whereas other peole are buying dozens and dozens of their hopia. Well, I would defintely go back and buy some more.

rainy monday

rainy days and mondays always gets me down

I don't like Mondays as I have to take the jeepney. I don't like rainy days when I need to go out. And today, it's Monday and it's raining. So I was 2 minutes late for work! I should have taken the day off instead of rushing and getting wet.

cafe press

I found this interesting website where you could shop, sell or create what's on your mind through Cafe Press.

Cafe Press Community is the world's leading online Marketplace for unique independently created products. Some benefits of becoming an Affiliate are as follows:

• Earn up to 20% commission on all qualifying products + 30 return days on all visitors
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• Send traffic to 35 million + unique products
• Display relevant ads that match and enhance your web site, shop or blog's content

This is interesting as you could create and customize your own t-shirts and photo gifts.

those past love stories

Everybody has a first love, they have left in yesterday.
Feelings they have left behind,
it's just a place in time but not so far away.

Reading and hearing stories on past relationships and love lost gives me a totally different feeling I could not describe. How I wish there is such a thing as past-love-amnesia. Maybe the song "First Love Never Dies" of Seals & Crofts works for me. Maybe there are just certain incidences in the stories that is similar to mine.

I wish you love, I wish you happiness.
And may the years be kind to you.
You'll always be a part of me, share this thought with me.
I'll carry you always.

Memories makes me remember, memories that I wish would left me. It was 5 years ago, yet I could still recall every detail of it. My life is different now, afar from who I was before.

First love in my life. Where are you tonight?
I wonder about you.
First love in my life. Did things turned out alright?
I worry about you.
'Cause I've got everything, everything in life that I wanted.
It would kill me now and make me sad to know you are lonely.
First love never dies.

Maybe I'm just a fan of stories of love. Stories wherein they would realize that there is still love, yet it was too late. Stories wherein one would get married, yet he still loves the other girl. Stories which end with the guy saying to her past girlfriend the words "I married her, teaching myself, keeping in mind, that I married you" or the words "how I wish it had been you..."

Perhaps I could write my own story.
I should have written it years ago.
And I am being sappy.

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They say that your first love never dies
You can put out the flame, but not the fire
- Bonnie Tyler "First Love"

just the same

Often times I would find myself in the same place and in the same instances I had been. Thinking the same thoughts, questioning the same questions, dreaming the same dream.
Where am leading?
I have been walking on this same path for too long
I had been feeling the same feelings I had felt before, facing the same fears and regrets...
I had been staring at the same sky, wishing on the same star...
Hoping I would be in a different place, in a different situation...

earthquake

I just read from the news that a 5.2 magnitude quake hits the country. We we're in Makati and the tremor registered at intensity 3. Good thing there were no reported damages. I did not felt the earthquake and its aftershock as I was so tired last night and we we're already sleeping that time.

With this I pray. Praying that our family and our love ones will always be safe whenever any calamity strikes. Praying that we would be together and that we would be free from harm. I believe that God is with us at all times.

send gifts through Philgifts

This is interesting. Philgifts offers delivery service for your loved ones in the Philippines. They have a wide range of flowers, teddy bears, chocolates, fruit baskets, christmas baskets, balloons and a lot more.