this time I won't cry

No I won't cry, no tears will fall.
I really don't feel good. Again, I felt a sense of regret last night before I go to sleep. There's no sense talking about what happened as nothing would change.

Won't let your words put me down.
I've heard hurtful words from you. I know I am not selfish, I have my reasons. Just because I don't want you to stay there means that I am selfish. Don't ask me who they are. What if I ask you, who I am and who the kids are for you?

I would just let it all go.
Forget it all. Pretend that this is just one of our misunderstandings. Something that we can't agree with. It would happen again, we both know it. And I would feel this way again, and I would hear those hurtful words once more.

I need to be strong. I'll always be.
I would face whatever would happen now. I don't want a time to come that the kids would ask and I can't think of a right answer. I won't let them feel what I had been feeling, knowing that they too would find it hard to understand.

I won't cry this time.
And I won't let tears fall.
No.