Thursday, March 30, 2006

the Notebook



I just finished reading the novel The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks. A story of love-lost-and-found-again.

The story opens present-day in a nursing home, where an elderly man reads bits and pieces of a love story of two young lovers from a notebook to his female companion. Young Noah Calhoun, a lumberyard worker, is instantly smitten with fifteen-year-old Allie Hamilton, the daughter of a well-to-do Southern family who is spending the summer at their vacation home in North Carolina. Allie's parents disapprove of their relationship, and Noah and Allie are separated. However, Noah and Allie's paths cross again seven years later, but Allie is engaged to wealthy Lon Hammond. - From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

He presented a question all but universal in appeal: What would happen if two people were given a second chance at the love of a lifetime? According to Nicholas Sparks. "When love is real, it doesn't matter what turns the road takes. When love is real, the joys and possibilities are endless."

The notebook is about finding faith, hope and most importantly, love.

Quotes that inspired me---

+ There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I have loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me this has always been enough.

+ You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. And, my darling, you will always be mine.

+ My daddy used to tell me 'the first time you fall in love it changes your life forever, and no matter how hard you try, the feelin' never goes away. This girl you been tellin' me about was your first love. And no matter what you do, she'll stay with you forever.

+ Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.

+ It's not about keeping your promises, it's about following your heart.

+ The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've give me. That's what I'd hope to give to you forever.

+My dearest Allie,I don't know what to say anymore except that I couldn't sleep last night because I knew that it is over between us. It is a different feeling for me, one that I never expected, but looking back, I suppose it couldn't have ended another way. You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. You showed me what it was like to care for another, and I am a better man because of it. I don't want you to ever forget that. I am not bitter because of what has happened. On the contrary. I am secure in knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together for even a short period of time. And if, in some distand place in the future, we see each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. And maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too, and you'll smile back, and savor the memories we will always share together. I love you, Allie. Noah

I am a woman

I am a woman that is beautiful inside and out, filled with joy and pride.
I am a woman as graceful as a butterfly, as woman should be seen and not heard.
I am a woman that is cunning, a woman of skill and knowledge.
I am a woman with strength, to knock down any boundaries keeping me from my journeys of life.
I am a woman that dream to have a life of an angel with never ending love and happiness.
I am a woman that’s your lover and friend, keep you feeling loved and secure.
I am a woman of respect and admiration; respecting and admiring you mind body and soul.
I am a woman with a passionate kiss with lips as soft as fresh rose petals, I leave you wanting and wishing for more.
I am a woman with a charm that’s as radiant as the sunshine.
I am a woman full of laughter, giggles and grins, which is the medicine of the soul.
I am a woman with my own identity, look into my eyes and you’ll see who I am.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

family outing


Family outing yesterday was fun. Lots of food, songs and laughter. We spent the day at a private pool in Laguna. There was a billiard table and a karaoke machine. It was the first outing of my new baby boy. Whew... I still could not take a swim and accompany my daughter in the pool, as I am still in the recovery period. Well, seeing relatives having fun is one great moment.

Monday, March 20, 2006

just when I thought

Michelle admitted before that she was jealous of me and that she is not at peace. I know she should not feel that way as I was just a person in Vincent's past. I know she just need more assurance that Vincent loves her so much. She hated me. She wanted me to look bad. I bet she was spreading stories to people who knew me. But then, I know myself more.
I was not the one who took the first step of befriending Lora or Michelle. Now they are accusing me of such! That I befriend them just to make them do the things I want and that I was using them?! This is what I get for being nice and offering a door to people whom I thought are real...

Sunday, March 19, 2006

remembrances

Looking back. Looking into.
There are events in my life that made me remember what was and what had been...
I had changed... my thoughts, my views are now different.
Yet not totally, some things just remain...

Saturday, March 18, 2006

adorable skylah


Skylah looks so adorable in this gown. She was so tired that she had slept when the party started. Nevertheless, she slept only for a few minuts and woke up when its time for us to be photographed together with the Jem. She was staring when the 18 roses began to dance with the debutante. She was also fascinated with the water fountain in the ballroom. When it was time for the guests to dance, my sisters and my mom took her to the dancefloor. She really loves to dance. Maybe she would be a good dancer when she rows up. The band had already packed their things, no one was on the dancefloor. Yet she still wants to...

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

sigh

Analyzing my life,
What I hoped, what it really was.
Accepting my destiny.
Contented.
Happy at most times,
Sometimes trying...
Forgetting the emptiness.
Closing my eyes,
I slept...
Heartaching dreams and trears.
Woke up exhausted.
This is not real,
Just fears.
Sigh.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

on being happy

Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect... it means you have decided to see things beyond the imperfections

Monday, March 06, 2006

this interests me

By the River Piedra, I sat down and wept. There is a legend that everthing that falls in the water of this river - leaves, insects, the feathers of birds - is transformed into the rocks that make the riverbed. If only I could tear out my heart and hurl it into the current, then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget.
By the River Piedra, I sat down and wept.The winter air chills the tears on my cheeks, and my tears fall into the cold waters that course past me. . Somewhere this river joins another, then another, until - far from my heart and sight - all of them merge with the sea.
May my tears run just as far that my love might never know that one day I cried for him. May my tears run just as far, that I might forget the river piedra, the monastary, the church in the Pyrenees, the mists, and the paths we walked together. I shall forget the roads, the mountains, and the field of dreams - the dreams that will never come true...
I remember my "magic moment" -that instant when a "yes" or a "no" can change one's life forever. It seems so long ago now. It is hard to believe that it was only last week that I had found my love once again, and then lost him.
By The River Piedra by Paolo Coelho

Thursday, March 02, 2006

music of my life

the music of my life plays on
regardless of things past
or of things yet to come
or of things that could've been
but never will...

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

her bluff messages

I'm getting used to receiving senseless text messages from Michelle. Messages containing accusations, words that are full of hate and sometimes even forwarded messages. Imagine that! Maybe she doesn't have anything else to do and she's wasting her time on me. Whew! And recently she texted me that I went to Landmark just to see Vincent... whew! How could that happen when the only place I had went to recently was my Mommy Lola's house and the hospital. She should check her messages... all are bluff!