sweet dreams baby

Sleep tight little one
Watching you sleep
So peaceful. So sweet.
I wonder what your dreams are made of
May the angels guard you
May you woke up with a smile on your face

loving my princess

Time had been too fast

I can't believe how much you've grown

You're more beautiful that I had ever dreamed

More precious that I had imagined

No matter how old you would be

You will always be loved

You will always be our princess

You will always be my baby

in my kids eyes

Sacrfice... that's what I always have to do.
I need to be strong... to protect them from their fears.

For 2 months, my kids are being taken care of stay-out caregivers. they would come to our house at 7 am and leave at 7 pm. Today is the last day that my kids would get to see their caregivers. It would be so hard as my kids have been accustomed to be with them everyday.

Again, fears and pain enveloped me. Situations which I had hoped would not happen. My kids would again have to adjust and be comfortable to a new caregiver that my mom would get for them. I know it would be hard to trust strangers to take good care of them. In their eyes, I could feel their fears upon the facing another stranger.

In pain, wishing that I would be there at all times. Yet I know I have to work to help support financially. The only thing I could do is remind them that they would be fine. I also have to release these fears in me. Praying at all times that nothing would harm them. Leaving my kids, while working in the office is not easy. Yet this is one thing that we have to live with.

weekend exploration

Last Saturday, hubby and I went to Divisoria. It's a place where you could find the cheapest bargains and you could haggle with the prices. The place is always crowded yet I still love going there. We've bought some goods, toys and shirts. We then decided to take our merienda in one of the chinese fastfood in Binondo. We ate at Chuan Kee. Its the first time I've tasted kiampong (a sticky chinese fried rice).

And of course, I've bought some hopia at Eng Bee Tin in Binondo. I love their hopia! I bought the Hopia Ube and the Hopia Ube/Pastillas combi. It's a very delightful treat. I have only bought 2 packs, whereas other peole are buying dozens and dozens of their hopia. Well, I would defintely go back and buy some more.

rainy monday

rainy days and mondays always gets me down

I don't like Mondays as I have to take the jeepney. I don't like rainy days when I need to go out. And today, it's Monday and it's raining. So I was 2 minutes late for work! I should have taken the day off instead of rushing and getting wet.

cafe press

I found this interesting website where you could shop, sell or create what's on your mind through Cafe Press.

Cafe Press Community is the world's leading online Marketplace for unique independently created products. Some benefits of becoming an Affiliate are as follows:

• Earn up to 20% commission on all qualifying products + 30 return days on all visitors
• Earn up to 5% commission on Shopkeeper Referral Sales
• Send traffic to 35 million + unique products
• Display relevant ads that match and enhance your web site, shop or blog's content

This is interesting as you could create and customize your own t-shirts and photo gifts.

those past love stories

Everybody has a first love, they have left in yesterday.
Feelings they have left behind,
it's just a place in time but not so far away.

Reading and hearing stories on past relationships and love lost gives me a totally different feeling I could not describe. How I wish there is such a thing as past-love-amnesia. Maybe the song "First Love Never Dies" of Seals & Crofts works for me. Maybe there are just certain incidences in the stories that is similar to mine.

I wish you love, I wish you happiness.
And may the years be kind to you.
You'll always be a part of me, share this thought with me.
I'll carry you always.

Memories makes me remember, memories that I wish would left me. It was 5 years ago, yet I could still recall every detail of it. My life is different now, afar from who I was before.

First love in my life. Where are you tonight?
I wonder about you.
First love in my life. Did things turned out alright?
I worry about you.
'Cause I've got everything, everything in life that I wanted.
It would kill me now and make me sad to know you are lonely.
First love never dies.

Maybe I'm just a fan of stories of love. Stories wherein they would realize that there is still love, yet it was too late. Stories wherein one would get married, yet he still loves the other girl. Stories which end with the guy saying to her past girlfriend the words "I married her, teaching myself, keeping in mind, that I married you" or the words "how I wish it had been you..."

Perhaps I could write my own story.
I should have written it years ago.
And I am being sappy.

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They say that your first love never dies
You can put out the flame, but not the fire
- Bonnie Tyler "First Love"

just the same

Often times I would find myself in the same place and in the same instances I had been. Thinking the same thoughts, questioning the same questions, dreaming the same dream.
Where am leading?
I have been walking on this same path for too long
I had been feeling the same feelings I had felt before, facing the same fears and regrets...
I had been staring at the same sky, wishing on the same star...
Hoping I would be in a different place, in a different situation...

earthquake

I just read from the news that a 5.2 magnitude quake hits the country. We we're in Makati and the tremor registered at intensity 3. Good thing there were no reported damages. I did not felt the earthquake and its aftershock as I was so tired last night and we we're already sleeping that time.

With this I pray. Praying that our family and our love ones will always be safe whenever any calamity strikes. Praying that we would be together and that we would be free from harm. I believe that God is with us at all times.

send gifts through Philgifts

This is interesting. Philgifts offers delivery service for your loved ones in the Philippines. They have a wide range of flowers, teddy bears, chocolates, fruit baskets, christmas baskets, balloons and a lot more.

his yesterday's memories

I remember yesterday was her day. She was a person in the past.
I wonder if he also remembered it, or had everything gone into oblivion.
Maybe yes, maybe somehow, as the child is with him.
The childs eyes, the boy's being makes him remember the woman.
How could he not recall.
I wonder where is she now. She carried with her their daughter.

I don't want to recall the pain it had caused me.
That until now I am still fighting this feeling of despise.
I am not in pain.
Though, I don't want to felt the scar it caused me, how I've been blinded, how it affected me and the feeling of regrets.
I ought not to ask if he remember his past. I must forget.

great words

Here I am. Working where there are very little or seldom exchanges of the words "good morning!" . Hearing those words today from a stranger made this day a good one. I am not of high rank but I appreciate those people who greet me with such words. Sometimes I also received the words "hello ma'm" on my way home from total strangers. These are simple words that really make a big difference. With this, I always respond back giving those people my sincere smile. In my heart I could hear the words, "may you be blessed".

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Office Memo:
October 24, Tuesday is a regular holiday throughout the country in observance of EID'L FITR (FEAST OF RAMADHAN) under proclamation 1155.

click and earn

I decided to take a step into the world of making a revenue online. I decided to add Google Adsense ads into my site. Have signed up for Adsense-Exchange which would give clicks to my Adsense ads. Well, I am still in the process of learning how it works. Hoping that my quest for revenue will push through. I have also started signing up at traffic generating sites like Traffic Echoes and Link Referral.

This is fun. It's something I love to do. I just hope I would generate some revenue.
Maybe I will create another blog for this soon.

I know a lot of people are successful in making money online. How I wish they would give me some tips.

Well, I better start learning more...

the way it is

I detest people who brag too much on what they have, especially people who are just planning to buy a certain thing. Seems they flaunt the money they have on their hands. They are not the typical rich persons, they are just ordinary people pretending to be full wealth. They feel that they are way above others.

I could remember someone saying "nakahawak lang ng kaunting pera, akala mo mayaman na, akala mo kung sino na!"

No humility. No humbleness

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Working each day is a drag.
Nothing to look forward to, just unmotivated.
Knowing that others receive more makes me feel down.
Leaving me without energy to give my best.
Anticipating that time would be so fast.
Reasoning out to myself that life had always been unfair.
It always was.

women of strength

I have read this in the email and decided to put this in my blog. I am proud to be a woman. I am not strong enough, I am not perfect and I easily cry. Reading this strenthens me.

WOMEN OF STRENGTH

They carry children, they carry hardships, they carry burdens,
yet they hold faith, happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They volunteer for good causes.

They are pink ladies in hospitals, they bring food to shut ins.
They are senators, educators, childcare workers, executives, attorneys,
truck drivers, pilots, stay at home moms and your neighbors.
They fight for what they believe in. They stand up against injustice.
They write to the "powers that be" for things that make for a better life.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.
They can wipe a tear, cover a cut and pat you on the back at the same time.
They go without new shoes so their children can have them.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They tell people that need to be told to straighten up their act.
They lend a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen
and a voice to make suggestions.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They have sorrow at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They can round up energy, even when they are tired.
They can stay up a little longer to talk to someone that needs a friend.

Women do more than give birth. They bring peace and hope.
They give compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
They weep with joy when their children excel,
and cheer when loved ones get awards.
Women want people to grow into the best person they can be.
They want to touch you in a way that will make you share your
goodness with others.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair
... true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes because
that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!

-author unknown-

wikimapia

I recently checked out this very interesting site, Wikimapia. It's where you could get to see the whole earth. Imagine that! It's fun exploring and getting to know certain places. I immediately checked out the place where I live and labelled it. I don't know if it's allowed though. The site allows anyone to mark a location and place a description. It's a very useful tool and I am likely to visit it anytime.

still the same

three years had passed
still nothing had changed
tired of the daily routine
offering me nothing
just security
then emptiness
leading me no where
a shift perhaps is better
yet fears had enveloped me
scared to embrace another change

randomness

+ on being late
received today my memo for being late for the month of August. it's my 2nd offense already! whewww... we were only allowed to be late 4 times in a month.

+ on blog traffic
I've spent some time today at Blog Explosion. I've surfed member blogs, played the scratchcard game, joined the blog rocket and voted in the battle of the blogs. I had fun at the site today, even if I've only won 1 mystery credit.

still no power

Until now, we're still living in the dark. It was so hard and we didn't know when we would have our electricity back. Read from the news that in Metro Manila, 97% have been restored. Lucky for those living in that places. Unfortunately, that was not us. So everyday we have to live in total darkness with only the candle giving us light. The kids are having a hard time sleeping. Whew!!!
Now, I am taking advantage of the Internet connection here at the office. Keeping myself updated with the situation. Hoping that everything would be back to normal.