Some revelations are true. Fragments of which I had done. Part by part being uttered. Assuming before that secrets can be masked and buried… that promises made can be kept. Fearing beforehand that it would happen yet setting aside such thought. As I have faith in the pact created. Yet I was the only one who kept the words safe. Now the trust was indeed shattered.
Who's a real friend and who's just pretending to be? I easily trust yet now I learned. There are people who would be nice, but have a discrete motive beneath the friendliness. Simply waiting for the time to wreck and pull me down. I could feel that a knife is slowly stabbing me at my back trying to make me weak. With eyes closed, I asked myself why it happen? I discern… it was because of envy and resentment. Yet, I remain strong even if I did not fight back. I have nothing to lose. I am still whole...
And this is what I want to say to Lora---
I guess you should give credit to yourself for what you had ruined, for the crazy and bitchy words you used for her, for hating Vincent and a lot more! You had been so nice to me. I never realize you have a different motive. Thank you for telling her your version of the twisted truth.
just posting Michelle's messages here...
+ If I could bring back the past I should have not acted the way I did before. I should have not thrown words against you. I was hurt and I admit that I felt insecure at that moment...
+ I was blinded by anger because I felt betrayed. I lost my trust on him for no reason. I keep on bringing about his past relationships... I was teh one who hurt myself and I feel ashamed for what I did.
+ Czaroma, thank you for making me realize how lucky I am. I shared to you how I feel coz I know you would understand.
+ I'm glad I got to know you and now I know why my husband loved you before. You're a a true person... it's just sad that we have to be in that situation before. The only regret I had is that I lost a friend... I'm sorry
+ Hope you will forgive me for everything I had done to you. Sorry I got you involved with my personal life... can we still be friends?
There's no sense replying to her messages anymore. I had done that before and befriended her. But then, so I choose not to give much attention to her. I don't want be complicated by the things in the past. All is over for me. There's no sense bringing it up again.
... got this from an email... Reflections of a Mother
While on my way to see my OB, I recieved a text message from Michelle. She said sorry for everything that she had said to me before. She was hoping that I'll allow second chances and she also wanted to see and talk to me personally.
Well then... it doesn't matter to me anymore.
Temptations are everywhere… this I sometimes fear. People have the choice to resist or give in. Yet at times, they are the ones who opt to be in such situations. If caught off-guard, I choose to believe in the words expressed. The reasons behind may sound irrational and absurd, but I realize that it’s the appropriate deed to do. All would then cease into oblivion…
I know myself more than anyone else. I have my good and bad side. I know my imperfections. No words could ever put me down... senseless words thrown at me by people who have nothing better to do. I am not pointing a finger but I know she's behind everything. Another one of her insecurities. Immaturity.
Now, Michelle sent me a text message using the number 09215061572. She told me that if somebody would send me a message again using her name/email ad, that wouldn't be her anymore. But she got no reply from me...
